Honesty....5

It is nice to know people read this thing. Even if it cause some outrageous acts or some people finally saying what they want to say. Which I love, making people finally say what they want to say. I mean why hide emotions and thoughts inside, you get nothing accomplished. Festering energy is what causes most fights. Why not just say it and be honest and be loving. So I push when I can tell that someone wants to say something and doesn't have the courage to say it.

For me being honest is my buried treasure and my passion. I have always lied since I was a little boy. Lied my way out of things lied my way in to things, to make others happy, to control a situation, to entertain others...etc. I just am a big lier surprise world out there. But the thing is I honor the truth so greatly that I would give my life for it. Lately I have been trying to find the honest in my life I have been forcing my self away from habit to be honest and take it. It is the reason I started this blog actually. It is my way to be more honest with how I feel and cutting the falseness that I create with the people around me. Basically a way to let my honest flow. And lately I have been finding that I have kinda filled my life with people that lie or are dishonest. So this summer I have started weeding out people in my life that are dishonest. At some points it is kinda difficult because some of the people I have found are some people that are close to me. I have this one friend that doesn't say how he feels ever. Which is cool I mean I don't want to make someone go somewhere they don't want to go. But he doesn't tell me when I make him uncomfortable or when I do something that aggravates him. This aggravates me. I mean come on aren't friends the ones you turn to and say hey I got a problem with that. That is another blog. This honesty that I am finding has been making me a happier being. I have been living my life this summer a way that is making my heart becoming more open. I never thought that being more honest in my life would do that to my heart. The honest words I have to say are not always loving and more often than not they are how I feel about annoyance and such. Honesty has broken me free of that man who wanted only to make other comfy in life. Honesty has given me a new zeal for this life I live.

Being who you are............4

I haven't written in a while I know but I have said that I am bad at keeping constantly up with this. I have been struggling if I want to make this blog a public thing or if I should just let it be able to be found and it is the luck of search. So Today I am going to put the website out there and see what happens. With that being said readers beware that somethings put in this maybe about you somethings maybe about friends. I write about love I write about what I know and the honesty that I am trying to exude.

Being who you are is something that is forced on all of us. People constantly say people will love you just the way you are. Or just be yourself and they will love you. What does this even mean. How can someone really know who they are and why is it such a huge deal to know. Maybe I just don't get it either. This topic doesn't have anything to do with someone else and all to do with me. I am currently in a time of my life where I am constantly looking. I have realized when I think I have a grasp on who I am I loose it and something comes up that changes it all. Someone told me that you find out who you are when you are presented with a situation and the choice you make says a lot about you, or maybe it was a movie. Either way I like that way of living not putting a label on yourself of who you are and just blindly feeling your way through. The decisions that we make truly do make up who we are. The what we want make up the decisions we make. So, does that mean we are what we want?