It is nice to know people read this thing. Even if it cause some outrageous acts or some people finally saying what they want to say. Which I love, making people finally say what they want to say. I mean why hide emotions and thoughts inside, you get nothing accomplished. Festering energy is what causes most fights. Why not just say it and be honest and be loving. So I push when I can tell that someone wants to say something and doesn't have the courage to say it.
For me being honest is my buried treasure and my passion. I have always lied since I was a little boy. Lied my way out of things lied my way in to things, to make others happy, to control a situation, to entertain others...etc. I just am a big lier surprise world out there. But the thing is I honor the truth so greatly that I would give my life for it. Lately I have been trying to find the honest in my life I have been forcing my self away from habit to be honest and take it. It is the reason I started this blog actually. It is my way to be more honest with how I feel and cutting the falseness that I create with the people around me. Basically a way to let my honest flow. And lately I have been finding that I have kinda filled my life with people that lie or are dishonest. So this summer I have started weeding out people in my life that are dishonest. At some points it is kinda difficult because some of the people I have found are some people that are close to me. I have this one friend that doesn't say how he feels ever. Which is cool I mean I don't want to make someone go somewhere they don't want to go. But he doesn't tell me when I make him uncomfortable or when I do something that aggravates him. This aggravates me. I mean come on aren't friends the ones you turn to and say hey I got a problem with that. That is another blog. This honesty that I am finding has been making me a happier being. I have been living my life this summer a way that is making my heart becoming more open. I never thought that being more honest in my life would do that to my heart. The honest words I have to say are not always loving and more often than not they are how I feel about annoyance and such. Honesty has broken me free of that man who wanted only to make other comfy in life. Honesty has given me a new zeal for this life I live.
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