Rasberry Banana.....10

So, I have been thinking about the act of change. What happens to a person when they decide to stop taking the abuse that constantly is around them? What happens to a person when they realize they are stronger than they are? When people wake up and look in the mirror and start loving themselves for themselves and not for who they are with or what they have. When someone stops blaming themselves for the past they have had and realize that blame is useless, a waste of energy. When someone finally accepts who they are and that people can and do love them, truly deeply passionately love them, the power in that acceptance is so powerful. When we stop finding it creepy to be treated like a prince or special and we start saying that I am special and I can be loved. We as human being would become more of a loving race instead of making lies and excuses up for the love we feel and the love we share. But here is a question to ponder, where is the line? Where is the line of I am scared and I don't want this to happen, love from or toward someone. I think it is a fine line because your fear is a very fox like creature. It will constantly play games with you and make you believe things so your heart doesn't get hurt. Think about it though if human's became truly honest, honest in the fact we just stop filling our lives with excuses and masks to hide and say what we truly feel. The other day I had a conversation with a friend of mine. He is dealing with some pretty heavy stuff and kept crying on nights he would get drunk and feel better the next day. This happened probably 4 or 5 times till I got a text saying something about guarding your heart. This word "guarding" gets thrown around more often than love into todays society. It is a word to cover up, to run and hide, to play dead to your emotions. I don't know another word to use but guarding your heart so you close it off to certain things and you don't let others in is just another way to run from yourself. So anyways I got this text about guarding and he wanted to talk about things. We talk for probably hour and a half and the issues we discussed had nothing to do with what he was dealing with it was what he was hiding from. The root of the issue and not just covering it up with people and relationships but the reason for the pain in you. The raw venerable naked truth that you say than you feel so alone and relieved at the same time. This truth which is inside of us all is what needs to be reviled. Your life with be able to live and breath with you with the burden of this pain you keep hidden.