Sleep.....3

I truly apologize for the last post maybe not being understandable I was tired after a long night at the bar. My soul was made to party what can I say. :-)

I went out for a friends birthday last night. He is a very attractive man in my eyes but he is a complete douche bag. I can't stand they way he treats women. I don't think he understands that what he does has any effect on the world around him. It is like he is in his bubble and nothing exists outside of it. I can relate to him in a way cause I used to have the thought process of me being the star of a t.v show and it was all about me. I do still have this from time to time. The question that comes up is why stay there, in that world of one. When I get out of that world I am so happy to look around and see everyone. So this guy is so selfish he has a girlfriend or a friend that is calling herself a girlfriend and acting like a girlfriend of his but apparently he hasn't told her otherwise. He thinks that this relationship isn't anything but a fling. The way this man, and I use the term man only because he has a penis and has gone through puberty, acts in public is like a viking ready to rape and pillage a town of women. Now, he is not a rapist but he looks at people at what they can give him and he uses his craft, acting, as an excuse to continue to do this. First off this is appalling that he would do this and second douche bag. that is all I can really say. I have this friend that he is obsessed with making out with and she came up as well with a new look on life and the things she wants and doesn't want. He was trying to get on her all night and she was not having it. The other fact is that he spent 27 hours with a the girl that his "girlfriend" and doesn't that somewhat mean that 'hey I am in a relationship with you and don't wanna leave your side.' I just don't get it. What makes me confused about him is how comfortable with him I am. I can tell him anything and do anything with him I love him. I do. He is a just a guy that I would talk about my dreams and my life with and not feel judged or anything. This type of love that he has taught me is new and confusing. How can someone love someone but hate what they do. I just don't get it. The heart knows what it loves and mine just wants the world to be filled with love.